The winds picked up and the storm began to rage. The winds were so strong that I could barely stand. The straps to my backpack began to tear. The noise and howl of the winds was deafening. Sand was consuming my vision and filling my eyes. The grit in my eyes was painful, I tried…
There are no exit doors.
I never grieved for him like I used to grieve for the others. I wouldn’t listen to sad love songs and pine and reminisce for him and the memories we had together. Love songs brought up emptiness for him in me. Until one day I heard a sad song and I began pining for myself…the…
Their existence is like a low level neglect that corrodes and erodes you.
I had nothing to give. I was so broken and those that were there to receive something from me walked away because I was empty. I resented them at first. I cursed them. Some I even confronted. I begged the universe, God, to show me justice in the face of those who left me broken…
It is me whom I must control.
This trek was meant for me with teachers who showed up for me as they once promised from another time and another realm. How much of the trek I spent resenting their very existence. And as I scan the eternal view of how much farther I have to go, I realize that I have my…
I’m always in an invisible prison. The narc’s prison. Surrounded by their walls. Their ever changing rules. Their tactics. Their landmines are everywhere. Sometimes I feel like I can’t breathe. Like there is something crushing my chest….my heart. I don’t feel free. I don’t remember what freedom feels like. My world feels small. And it’s…
I was forced to let go of all that didn’t serve me. It was so painful to watch so much be destroyed. In my bareness now….my bare feet upon this rich soil…like a blank canvass ready to speak something beautiful……I’m grateful for being stripped down to almost nothing. I see my roots again. I’m remembering…
I’m standing at ground zero and the bulldozers have cleared the area. The rubble is gone. The wreckage of the past is gone. The past doesn’t matter anymore. The pain has been cleared and is not welcome on this new earth. The ground is flat. Rich soil extends all around. I’m standing amidst possibility. I…