“You will be tested” she said as she found the message in my stars. My mind couldn’t see what she saw. But I will continue to find my way back and the tests will try to destroy me. They are illusions and they will come and go….I will allow them to pass if I can…
I feel stifled and trapped. I’m in a maze and I can’t find the exit. I don’t even want to finish the maze, I just want the hell out of it. He has found so many ways to ensnare me at every turn. Or so my mind thinks. Is it his labyrinth or my own? …
I took one last look around as I turned 360 degrees breathing in how far I have come. I stopped overlooking the terrain extending out as far as my mind could see. I brought my toes to the edge of the cliff and I looked down over the edge. With no bottom in sight I…
It’s been a treacherous trek along a tormented path. I realize that this path didn’t start ten years ago. It started a lifetime ago. It’s taken this long…this many painful obstacles and drawn out suffering to finally see the ripples set in motion so many years ago. I stopped at a clearing atop a cliff…
My boundaries want to serve me but they need to know that I will not waiver. My boundaries will stand strong for me as long as I give them permission to do so. Every time I place more value on my Kingdom within than on the visitors traveling through from without then my boundaries become…
I see a different story from a different perspective. The sheer fact that I am actually able to stand amid the rubble of ground zero and not be brought to my knees with a cry that reverberates into my soul and past it is a miracle. Am I depressed? No. I’m preparing to rise and…
The End Path
No matter what path we choose, we are fucked no matter what. Run the scenarios. They will all end up in pain, and in letting each other go. Whether we let go now or we let go later, it won’t fucking matter.
It had been two years of solitude, of acceptance, of resignation to the only thing that I knew was certain. I was not going to love again. Because I was unlovable. My love wasn’t strong enough to penetrate their darkness. Their darkness nearly destroyed me completely. I still wonder if it just might one day…
Love No Matter What
It had been two years since I shut down to love. In those two years, I fell into the deepest and darkest hole within myself. While my body had finally broken under all of the pressure of the last ten years of my life, so had my internal paradigm of everything that was love. The…
Soulmates. Between Worlds.
I don’t know. It felt so fucking real. It just felt so right. Maybe I misread that whole thing. Maybe I just lost my goddamn fucking mind.